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It's my dad 1 year anniversary today. Getting pretty emotional....

Got some of those videos from xuan xuan's mother. Watched those videos with my mum , it's really heartbreaking. Imagine a man who's always laughing and smiling in those videos, he is laying dead and cold in that wooden coffin, his body is no longer in this world...how pathetic...all we left now are just those memories...
It'd already been 1 year since my dad passed away. Nothing changes, the Earth still rotate and the sun still rises but I know that deep in my heart, something in my life changes. Something that I think it can never be recovered. I miss you, dad. Watching those videos and pictures about him only makes me emo for the whole entire day.

I am speechless about my life and those problems that adult claims to be funny. It's 1 year anniversary on my father's death, but NO ONE from my dad's side came. Funny isn't it? 7 days, 49 days, 100 days and 1 year, I only saw my father's side (relatives) visited on the 7th and 100 days. Really speechless. They claimed they will take care of us after my father passed away. They tried their best to help us, but it only lasted for 1 month.

I know they are not as rich as my mother's side, I don't need them to help us financially. But..a call, a call to show that you are worried and you care about us doesn't hurt much..really...doesn't hurt much....I didn't get any call from them..NO CALLS...NO NOTHING...I have nothing left to say.

Mother's side (relatives) help us financially...I know they are nice...but...sometimes..they care too much...too much that they starts to interfere in my life and caused those sadness and stress....lol...funny isn't it? One side doesn't care or give a shit, the other side care too much and caused those stressed and chaos in my family...is it my fault for asking too much? Or is this what they call the inbalance in life...

If times ever goes back to the past, I will not sleep so early on that particular day. I will try to hang on even if I have a terrible headache...If I can stay late that night, I can probably change something...or do something to prevent all this from happening...

''Memories is a gift by someone, but sometimes this gift, brings nothing but tears ©'' by: Clare Zhou SiYin

Labels: Dad...I missed you alot...alot..

It's my dad 1 year anniversary today. Getting pretty emotional....

Got some of those videos from xuan xuan's mother. Watched those videos with my mum , it's really heartbreaking. Imagine a man who's always laughing and smiling in those videos, he is laying dead and cold in that wooden coffin, his body is no longer in this world...how pathetic...all we left now are just those memories...
It'd already been 1 year since my dad passed away. Nothing changes, the Earth still rotate and the sun still rises but I know that deep in my heart, something in my life changes. Something that I think it can never be recovered. I miss you, dad. Watching those videos and pictures about him only makes me emo for the whole entire day.

I am speechless about my life and those problems that adult claims to be funny. It's 1 year anniversary on my father's death, but NO ONE from my dad's side came. Funny isn't it? 7 days, 49 days, 100 days and 1 year, I only saw my father's side (relatives) visited on the 7th and 100 days. Really speechless. They claimed they will take care of us after my father passed away. They tried their best to help us, but it only lasted for 1 month.

I know they are not as rich as my mother's side, I don't need them to help us financially. But..a call, a call to show that you are worried and you care about us doesn't hurt much..really...doesn't hurt much....I didn't get any call from them..NO CALLS...NO NOTHING...I have nothing left to say.

Mother's side (relatives) help us financially...I know they are nice...but...sometimes..they care too much...too much that they starts to interfere in my life and caused those sadness and stress....lol...funny isn't it? One side doesn't care or give a shit, the other side care too much and caused those stressed and chaos in my family...is it my fault for asking too much? Or is this what they call the inbalance in life...

If times ever goes back to the past, I will not sleep so early on that particular day. I will try to hang on even if I have a terrible headache...If I can stay late that night, I can probably change something...or do something to prevent all this from happening...

''Memories is a gift by someone, but sometimes this gift, brings nothing but tears ©'' by: Clare Zhou SiYin

Labels: Dad...I missed you alot...alot..